Seeing it from an adults perspective

Wow!!... in a few days it'll be 2012 already!!...it feels like someone fast forwarded a time machine! I mean I still remember watching the Steelers and the Packers play the Superbowl back in February. "Black and Yellow"!!  :D

So I've been living down with some good family down here in Hertford, NC for the past few months. Jim and Becky are good people. My nieces Bri and Trudy are both amazing kids. Poor Bri. I really feel bad for her. We live out of town down this stretch of hwy where there are really no neighbors and no kids her age (she's 7). So the only real fun she has is spending time with her dad or her uncle. (Her mom is sick physically due to a severe stomach problem)

Trudy has her share of teen drama. She's growing up too quick. And at 14 I just realized in 4 more years she'll graduate High School. The scary thing is that she doesn't realize how quickly it'll sneak up on her. I'm worried she's not going to pass 8th. She's a smart bright kiddo, but I worry bout her future. She needs to get her priorities straight. It's not really my concern, but she's been hanging out. I know all of em she's been deeply involved with. That scares me, but I donno what to do. It's sad what these kids go thru. It may seem like your typical teen drama, but it's real with these kids. No wonder why they get depressed and get hurt.

It's tough to be round someone like that

So I guess I am one of those guys who isn't part of the norm. I forgive too easily, live life a little less seriously and am still good friends with my ex. Yeah... I love her and care for her but not IN love with her. We've been thru alot, and I hope her and Kevin last forever, but she hasn't been taken care of herself.

I mean when you have a heart attack at the age of 41 and the doctor advises you to exercise, quit smoking and eat a better diet or you'll die early I think I'd be following my doctors advice!
I guess thats one of the issues I have with her. She's not taking better care of herself. Still spending money of cigs she can't afford. She hasn't bothered to improve her life and that bothers me. It's tough to be around someone you care bout when they don't seem to care bout themselves.

Why follow your heart?

Why do they say "listen to your heart"? 


The heart doesn't care about what will happen tomorrow. It doesn't think about the consequences and the pain later down the road. 


We get hurt waaay to much when we only listen to our heart.

Shouldn't we be using our heads when getting into a relationship, then let our hear follow? 


Shouldn't we be saying to ourselves "where will I be 6 months or a year with him/her?"

Things can change in an instant

So...my last post was kind of in the dumps, but I got called back to Office Max for the second interview. It really wasn't an "interview" as it was a briefing on the first interview and a description of what I'll be doing in the store. LOL!.. yeah.. Ed Shannon (the store manager) basically went around the long way letting me know I had the job! The position title is "Store Technician Specialist/Key Holder"....it's in between Assistant Manager and Senior Assoc. So there's a BIG load off my back.

Moved down with Becky and Jim for the time being.... it's nice not to smell that cig smoke. She doesn't realize how much it bothers and affects me. I find that I'm having to clear my throat every 5 minutes from that stinky stuff. And with three smokers it gets to you. It's good to be out of the ghetto and into the country for a bit :-D
I love my family soo much... but I wish they'd understand that I have a hard time with smoking...even more  than a few years ago.

Bre (Maples) seems like she's having a tough time right now. She emailed me saying her BF broke up with her and her mom is threatening to kick her out. She's a good kid who's been through alot of crap. It's not fair... wish I could help out besides just emailing and texting.

Can it get any worse?

Feeling frustrated, lonely and worthless right now. I think I did a crappy interview with Officemax for Store Technology Rep. Found out Trudy I guess got back with Isiah.. the same BF who made her upset the other night because of trust issues. Drove all the way back from Hertford to Glichester to pick up Kevin. turned out he was supposed to get off at 6:00. We didn't show up till 7. Then heard Vicky bitch and throw a guilt trip on me cause I'm moving down with Jim and Becky. Yeah... NOT a good night at all. FML :-(

Tron Cycle ..... sweeeeet!

Wow... Tron comes into the real world :-D
Doesn't sound like much of an engine... prob a 550cc

Be there for them

Whether they are your mom, dad, sister or brother.
Friend, family, boyfriend or girfriend
Get over the drama quickly, forgive them and accept who they are.

Be there for them...give them a random hug. Because they need you and you need them more than you think.

Love them and accept them because you never know if they'll be here tomorrow. <3

Wow... this is pretty intense... this would be prime for an anti-bullying campaign.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eOd7QaDmBEM&NR=1

Slow down in life

Have you ever-watched kids on a merry-go-round,
or listened to the rain slapping on the ground?

Ever followed a butterfly's erratic flight,
or gazed at the sun into the fading night?

You better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

Do you run through each day on the fly?
When you ask, "How are you?" Do you hear the reply?

When the day is done, do you lie in your bed,
with the next hundred chores, running through your head?

You'd better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

Ever told your child, we'll do it tomorrow,
and in your haste, not see his sorrow?

Ever lost touch, let a good friendship die,
'cause you never had time, to call and say "Hi"?

You'd better slow down, don't dance so fast,
time is short, the music won't last.

When you run so fast to get somewhere,
you miss half the fun of getting there.

When you worry and hurry through your day,
it is like an unopened gift... thrown away.

Life is not a race, do take it slower.
Hear the music, before the song is over.

Oohh man!.. I just got grossed out!

Okay.. so I've seen the tasty lip balms of banana, strawberry, bubble gum and even Dr. Pepper and A&W Root Beer. But come on!!....Spam?

Who needs to smack on some smelly meat on their lips? I donno about you but it kinda grosses me out. I couldn't kiss someone with lips smelling like Spam!

http://www.geekalerts.com/spam-lip-glaze/

Moving for friends

Ha!.. my entire body feels bruised because I just helped a Jim, Becky move this week and I got the workout from hell. Yup.. I got beat up by a love seat, a washer/dryer, and a dresser.
And to top it off Bri and Trudy (7 and 14 y old nieces) pounced on me like a punching bag! XD
They actually got a really nice house. I think it was made back in the 30's but it's newly remodeled with central AC and an added back den which is Trudys room. Very spacious home. Becky and Jim love it as well as Bri and Trudy.


Finally met Meghan, one of Trudys friends who used to live down in Snug Harbor last year. She recently got her septum pierced and it looks like it hurts! She's a very sweet kiddo who's dad died last year due to cancer. She wrote this on the one year anniversary of his death. She's a beautiful kiddo.
http://shannonlinquist.blogspot.com/2011/05/daughters-letter-to-her-father.html

LMAO!! - So a FB friend showed me this video... I was weeeakk!

Yeah.. it's fucking sad

Wow.... So this kid named Hope on FB really pissed me off. She started shit that made me block friends I really didn't want to. All I was trying to do was hellp them out...talk to them when they had no one else to talk to. Well fuck you. I could care less bout you. Some people have some preconceptions about me and it's sad. Very sad because you don't even know who I am. Little do you know. You don't even talk to me and you've come to a conclusion.

Learning to live

Relationships come and go in our lives. Our hearts get touched by that one person and we feel happy. We feel loved. Yet the one person who you thought loved you....that one single person that you'd thought would be their no matter what simply leaves.......dumps you, making you feel like trash.

Sometimes you don't even know what to do with yourself. It hurts....you feel lost and it's painful at times.

Sometimes things don't turn out as planned. Life never does.

We just got to see another day as a wonderful opportunity to make the next day a bright wonderful one. To make the best out of it. To get up the next morning and remember to breath.... to place one foot in front of the other and live again. To enjoy time with the coworkers we work with, and the classmates with go to school with. We got to turn to our family who is thier for us and our best friends we share our memories with. Those are the times that count. Those are the times that are special.

Be there for each other. Care for each other. Thats what life is all about right?

A really weeeaak conversation!

I had needed to relax :)

Was down for a couple of days in Snug Harbor hanging out at Bobby and Sams. Needed to relax and get away from Kevin and Vicky and their money issues.
Had a blast at the pool Saturday with the kids! (Sam, Toni, Bre and Carrie).. then they talked Jim into going to Burger King.

A little child laid to rest

UUuugh... Attended the service for Miles Shipman who lost his life in a car accident last week. (http://shannonlinquist.blogspot.com/2011/06/terrible-tragedy.html) He was only 10 years old and had such a bright future. I hardly knew the family or Miles, but Trudy was close and thought of Miles as her brother. The service was very nice. The pastor had a good talk, quoted a few good scriptures actually.... I liked what he said about not believing that God takes children and questioned people who had that kind of thinking. Lela (Miles sister) took it the hardest. when the family came in both her and Holly (mom) were crying/very upset. That affected everyone, especially the kids. Trudy and Lexi took it really hard.
All I can do is pray for the hope we have of seeing him again - Joh 5:25-30

We went out afterwards to Andys in E-City. It was kind of a relieve and everyone relaxed a little bit more. At the service finally met Jeannie & Lexi. Jeannie is a cool gal. Always there for her kids ... that's says alot about her. :)

It's not right

Today I talked to Julia on Skype.... it's rare for her to call me so I knew something was going on. I saw her face and I thought it was about a guy. I thought it was a BF/GF issue. Man....was I wrong. Her mom came over to her grandparents house and yelled at Julia who was upstairs, to let the dogs out at the back porch. Well.. her mom was 10 feet from the screen door. Julia told her mom she'll be down in a min...5 minutes later, Julia comes down to let the dogs out and her mom hits her hard in the face and starts yelling at her. I was on Skype with her and I saw it. Julia was so upset and started crying.
I wanted so bad to drive down have her pack all her stuff and bring her back to Hampton. Smh!.. it pisses me off when I hear bout kids getting hit like that. Especially a girl like Julia. She's been thru alot. You can see it on her face. All i want to do is give her a hug.. thats all..nothing more... just a big hug saying "hey... I'm here for you"

It's not fair for these kids. I want to badly to take them in, just for a couple of days. I wish I had my own place again... I'd bring Trudy and Julia up her so they could have some fun and relax a little. You know.. just to escape the hillbilly atmosphere. these kids deserve so much better. Anyways.. I told Julia I'd take em bowling or skating.. something where they can smile and relax a bit.

A terrible tragedy

Well.. Thursday was a very very sad day for me. There was an accident that a family was involved in near Elizabeth City, NC. The car had 7 people in it and the driver turned to avoid a tractor and rolled. A mom, her 13 year old daughter, a friend of the daughter and 10 year old son was in the car. Miles Shipman, the 10 year old boy was ejected from the car and died immediately. The 13 year old daughter was ejected to but only suffered minor injuries. The mother broke her neck, and they're still unsure of the damage that was done.

The whole family is well known in Hertford. My niece Trudy says she loved Miles like a little brother. It's soo sad and the daughter, Lela, is still traumatized and won't accept that his brother is dead. I hardly knew the family except thru what my niece said but it's always painful sometimes to here about the death of a child. Especially because I'm a dad and uncle. It's not normal for a parent to outlive a child.

 Praying that the Shipman family recover and stay strong.

My niece doesn't think sometimes

So my niece is head over this guy and his name is Blake. He seems like a nice kiddo, but she is so infatuated with this guy that I know soon her heart is going to be crushed. She may do something that she will regret.. maybe not this guy.. maybe not the next.. but she will be so hurt, she'll end up hurting herself because of the pain. The problem with her is that she doesn't know how to balance friends with BF's. I just asked her tonight if Skylar could go swimming with us tomorrow. Skylar is a bright, smart beautiful girl who's got a real good head on her shoulders. She knows what she wants to do with her life. 

Anyways Skylar asked if would be cool if she could come down, and I thought it would be great to have her down. Today was the first time I saw her in person since we've been chatting on FB in October. Jim took the gang including me and Kelsie (Trudys) friend out to Vans which is a great Gyro/Greek restaurant and I saw Skylar there. Anyways. I told her I would love to have her out for a day swimming with Trudy tomorrow but needed to ask Bobby if it was cool, and ask trudy if she had any other plans. Trudy gave me a look like "what do you think...of course not silly" but then goes and asks if Blake could come with us. She doesn't realize that she can't spend time with her and Skylar both. It's gonna cause drama and I see that a mile away already. She's going to be ALL over Blake.. and I'm considering calling the whole thing off.

Why would you leave a beautiful woman like that?

So I'm checking out the Yahoo page and there's a gorgeous blonde holding some award. She has a beautiful smile, blue eyes, and a cute button nose. I'm telling myself "OMG.. Reese is looking hot tonight".

Then I got to thinking why would a man cheat on that? I mean what was Ryan Philippe thinking when he cheated on Reese Witherspoon. Nobody cheats on her! She's beautiful on the inside as well as gorgeous.

It's happened to a few women who didn't deserve being left high and dry for someone else. Sara Evans, Jennifer Aniston, Shania Twain..etc Why would a man leave a woman like that? For another woman who isn't half as beautiful. It's like leaving a steak and lobster dinner for a Mcdonalds happy meal. It doesn't make any sense!

Welp - last week was fun

Spent the past few days in Snug Harbor with family & friends. Had a blast with Trudy and Bri. Both Bobby/Sam and Jim/Becky seem to be doing well. Went driving with my niece who drove like crazy nuts almost hitting a couple of mailboxes. But it was fun. Wish more adults could have fun like that. Anyways made a halfhearted attempt to clean the pool out which thankfully was dry but full of leaves and pine needles. I'm deactivating my FB account, because some of these kids are immature and I'm tired of the trash talk. They can work it out themselves. If they get into shit, thats their problem. IDGAF anymore.

Anyways - got it all planned out.. will be doing it when I get back from my visit with my sister in Tennessee. I just need to find a way out to the Cape as regular buses don't go out there. The Gulf Steam currents will be perfect. :-/

Some fun useless trivia

If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days, you would have produced enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee. 
Hardly seems worth it!

A pig's orgasm lasts for 30 minutes. 
In my next life I want to be a pig (How'd they figure this out, and why?)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories an hour. 
Still can't get over that pig.

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure. 
Is that why Flipper was always smiling?

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed people do. 
If you're ambidextrous do you split the difference?

The ant can lift 50 times its own weight, can pull 30 times its own weight and always falls over on its right side when intoxicated. 
From drinking little bottles of...? (Did taxpayers pay for this research??) 

Polar bears are left handed. 
Who knew....? Who cares? How'd they find out, ask them?

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds. 
What can be so tasty on the bottom of the pond?

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the length of a football field. 
30 minutes...can you imagine?? And why pigs?

A cockroach will live nine days without it's head, before it starves to death. 
Creepy...You've got to wonder about the sick sadist who found this out.

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its body. The female completes sex by ripping the male's head off. 
Honey, I'm home. What the!!

Some Lions can mate over 20 times a day. 
In my next life I still want to be a pig...quality over quantity

Butterflies taste with their feet. 
Oh, geez !!That's almost as bad as catfish

An ostrich's eye is bigger than it's brain.
I know some people like that.

Starfish don't have brains. 
I know some people like that too. 
After reading all these, all I can say is.......Lucky pigs! 

Life is all about....

Relationships come and go in our lives. Our hearts get touched by that one person and we feel happy. We feel loved. Yet the one person who you thought loved you....that one single person that you'd thought would be their no matter what simply leaves.......dumps you, making you feel like trash.

Sometimes you don't even know what to do with yourself. It hurts....you feel lost and it's painful at times.

Sometimes things don't turn out as planned. Life never does.

We just got to see another day as a wonderful opportunity to make the next day a bright wonderful one. To make the best out of it. To get up the next morning and remember to breath.... to place one foot in front of the other and live again. To enjoy time with the coworkers we work with, and the classmates with go to school with. We got to turn to our family who is thier for us and our best friends we share our memories with. Those are the times that count. Those are the times that are special.

Be there for each other. Care for each other. Thats what life is all about right?

Seeing family and friends

Drove down to see family and friends in Snug Harbor yesterday. It was really nice. Stopped by first Angies & Kevins. Sams laptop screen was busted. I figured that. Dipshit probably thew it down on the floor when he got mad at Sami. But thats only speculation. The laptop will be easy to fix. Sams heart is what I worry bout.

She seemed like she was doing alright. I know shes been  stressed out. I mean after the breakup of her and Randy, getting this silly ass senior project done by Tuesday, worrying about graduation, working at McDonalds. The crap can pile up real quick. I told her what she really needs to do is concentrate on one thing... her future and what she wants to do after school. Thats all. She's got a bright future and I hope she makes the best of it. I told her everything else is just a few potholes in the road. Randy doesn't help. His true colors came out the other day. The guy is an ass. One less complication for Sami. She's not even family and I worry bout her, but I know she'll do great.. she's got the stamina and will to go the distance and make the best out of her life :-D

Becky, Jim and the family are doing good. Although I'm guessing Becky is back on the meds. Thats not good and it really bothered Vicky. I wonder who filled the scripts up? I would have refused... Becky doesn't need that crap.... she needs to be active, around the house... spending time with Trudy and Bri. They need her... the last thing Becky needs is those stupid meds! Trudy has strep throat... poor girl... it was so bad she was bleeding in the back of her throat! Anyways... she should be on her antibiotics today.

Kinda pissed at my niece though. I read a comment on FB that she wrote. "A hoe will be a hoe" and it really pissed me off because I know who she was talking about. But the ironic thing is she got really hurt when she was called that by Julia just a few weeks ago. The LAST thing she should be doing is calling someone else that. WTF?? She knows it hurt a really sweet kid who didn't deserve that. The more I think about it the more I'm pissed!! Guess my niece is a real hypocrite. Now I realize why all the fukin drama these kids go through... they make it on their own.

A daughters letter to her father

This is a letter that a girl wrote for her father. She's a friend of my niece. She's a beautiful kiddo.

Today ...

may 8th ...

mothers day ...

one year.

you've been gone for one whole year.

it seems like, only yesterday you were pushing me on the swings & teaching me how to ride a bike.

you were the most amazing person i will ever meet.

you were so smart & helpful .

you always believed in me, you always believed that i could do anything, thta i could be anything.

i miss you so much.

word cannot explain.

its so hard, to live with the pain of missing you everyday.

i get stronger everyday though. <3

& its all because of you. 

you taught me so much.

you knew more than anyone i'll ever meet & you didnt even go to college.

but dont you worry, i'll make some outta myself daddy, i'll become someone.

you'll be proud. I PROMISE.

you have fun up there .

you walk he streets of heaven w/ all the other angels. 

you deserve it.

you suffered & stayed strong for so long.

cancer had NOTHING on you.

nothinng.

you didn't lose the fight, you won it. <3

i l o v e y o u w i t h m y w h o l e h e a r t . 

Why do I care?

So someone asked me the other day... why do you even get involved with these kids? Why do you even bother?
Two reasons. Because of what they're going thru now, a

nd, because I've seen it before 7 years ago with my own daughter and friends.

I've seen a 13 year old girl get hit, verbally abused, and pushed by her mom, start to cut herself and try to runaway. I've seen a 16 year old get involved with drugs, and a 15 year old become pregnant and become a mom in high school. (she has a 5 years old daughter now)

One of Trudys friends parents are divorced, lives with her Mom and lets he daughter hang out till 10 at night (at 11 years old!). Another girl saw her own mother get killed by her father when she was 7. One girls mom has mental issues and has had to go thru psyc treatment when she through a large book at her own daughter.  Another kiddo who live in Chesapeake had her father die last year from cancer.


It can be soo tough for these kids when life blindsides them and hits them hard. But then they get more drama piled onto thier plate like relationships, BF's, GF's, breakups, arguments between best friends, grades, classes, EOG tests. Sometimes it seems like it doesn't stop. 


So thats why I care about them..... thats why I get involved. I know I can only help so much. I know that...because I'm not family....that I'm just an "Uncle" to some of them....I can only guide them and give em pointers in relationships, and in school. But I do it because I'm a dad and an uncle myself...... and they have a bright future ahead of them.

It's been a decent week

So ALOT went on these past few days. Becky stopped using and threw away all her medications. Now she's up, alert, and has never felt better. I love it.. I can talk to her and have a good conversation on the phone. Trudy and Bri are really happy right now. 


An English commoner got married to a prince. Kate and Williams wedding seemed to go off really well. William seemed to be gushing at Kate and she looked beautiful. 


And last night, the head of a worldwide terrorist organization was shot and killed. Osama Bin Laden was shot and killed by navy seals in Abbottabad, Pakistan. 


Alot of people are relieved and are happy, but the thing is he was only one man, and the organization still exists. 

New carrier...new phone

So we decided it was time to switch phone carriers as we were getting tired of AT&T ripping us off with all the hidden surcharges and move over to Verizon. We all got Android phones which is smart. I don't think I'll ever buy a Windows Mobile phone again.

 I like the idea of open source, and with all the apps in the Market, you can't go wrong. Anyways I got a Motorola Devour. It's a great phone in a lightweight rugged aluminum case, nice slide out keyboard, 3.5in capacitive touch screen, 3mp camera. The screen is very responsive as far as touch is concerned but sluggish when you turn the phone over to landscape mode.

There's two things I hate bout this. The cheesy 3mp camera is sub par for photos. The phone was just released last year in February, yet Motorola has now discontinued it as of March 10th. Why? And to top it off it's running Android 1.6 (Donut) and when I tried to upgrade to 2.2 I can't. It seems as though Motorola pulled the plug on this one. But I love the ruggedness and feel to the case.

I'm debating whether I should return this for a Droid or not. :-)

Family

Family isn't always blood. It doesn't have to be only mom, dad, sister, aunt or uncle. It can go father than that.
It's the people in your life who want you in theirs; the ones who accept you for who you are.


The ones who would do anything to see you smile, and who love you no matter what. Imagine if everybody treated friends like loved ones and family like that? It would be pretty close to peace as we could get.

Gimme a break!!

So Friday night we had Trudy and Julia overnight. They're such good kids. Found out that my niece is a pyromaniac! LOL! It was pretty uneventful except for the Julia was talking to some kids outside the windows. I walked outside later to drive em back down to Hertford, NC just to find my car had writing on it with chalk. I was upset, but I wasn't pissed. It was easily washable. Now if it was written in permanent marker, yes... i would have been ripped. 

So I drop Julia off, and ended up picking Becky and Bri (Trudys mom and sister) and drove back up here. That night, me and Becky were supposed to go to Walmart..... we walk outside and plopped in the van... I try to put the key in the ignition just to find the entire ignition component had been torn apart! (Mind u it was dark out) we ended up having to call the police, file a report, and they dusted for prints. I doubt they'll find anything, but it pisses me off when someone vandalizes another's property. What the hell happened to respect

Sucks to be this guy!!

And now folks some real excitement on Lake Washington in Seattle!

What a good friend is all about

A good friend is a person who gives you the better of the two choices, hold your hand when you're scared, helps you fight off those who try to take advantage of you, thinks of you at times when you are not there, reminds you of what you have forgotten, helps you put the past behind you but understands when you need to hold on to it a little longer, stays with you so that you have confidence, goes out of their way to make time for you, helps you clear up your mistakes, helps you deal with pressure from others, smiles for you when they are sad, helps you become a better person, and most importantly loves you.

There's never a wrong time to pick up a phone or send a message telling your friends how much you miss them or how much you love them. No matter where we go or who we become, never forget who helped us get there.

If you love someone, tell them. Remember always to say what you mean. Never be afraid to express yourself. Take this opportunity to tell someone what they mean to you. Seize the day and have no regrets. Most importantly, stay close to your friends and family, for they have helped make you the person that you are today and are what it's all about anyway.

I miss this

I miss these goofy conversations. :-/

The amazing "Slobstopper"... get it while supplies last!

Came across the corniest invention I've ever seen! It's called "The Slobstopper".
Basically it's a big giant bib for adults. Yeah... thats right.. a bib! They even have a tagline in their ad.

"Bibs aren't just for babies!"

At first I thought it was a joke, but it's the real deal. For a price of 14.95 you ger a plastic adult size bib meant to wear while driving. In my book.. thats called "FAIL".. LMAO!!!

The actual website is here:
http://www.slobstopper.com/

I'm still weeaak from this :-D

"Can you hear me now?" ...... umm...... sorry .. ..not anymore :-/

So the Verizon "test guy" who's been saying that catchphrase over 9 years will be no longer, Verizon has him going in a different direction. He's still employed with Verizon, but has now hung up the jacket and retired the "Test Man". He says he's actually relieved about it. When you think about it, nine years of doing commercials as one character is a long time.

http://tv.yahoo.com/blog/verizon-phases-out-can-you-hear-me-now-guy--2754

And I was just thinking about switching from AT&T to Verizon.....


.

Umm.. who's flying.. or driving the plane?

While taxing to takeoff at JFK an Air France 380 (thats right.. a 380!) clips the tail of a regional ComAir CRJ-700 and tosses it around like a toy!

Trudy and friends

Welp - gonna take some time off of FB for a while. I need to take a break.
Anyways...Made this back in February for the kids. They were all going thru some sorta drama. And made it just to show em whats really important. Anyways, got a alot of good comments on it. :-)

Why are some attracted to violence?

So Tim is showing me his pics from his last trip from the Phillipines, and photos of a cock-fight come up on the screen and he starts describing enthusiastically how they tie the razor blades on the legs of the rooster, and telling me how they sew the birds up after the fight, all the time he's getting exited about it. It was really ticking me off. I don't approve of using animals in a blood sport as for entertainment. It barbaric, and ruthless. I can't see how anyone can call that fun. We might as well go back to the Roman days and watch the bloody battles between the gladiators and the bulls and tigers.

A goofy night

Went down to NC/Hertford/SH last night.Had fun. Took , Trudy, Julia & Bree to the movies last night and watched of ALL things "Diary of A Wimpy Kid 2". Well.... it was n't exactly the movie you take teens/middle schoolers to. LOL! I think we all felt out of place with all the 5-9 year olders in the theater. Trudy was wanting to a scary movie of some sorts. But nothing was playing. I was laughing my a$$ off with the way these kids were in the theater.... tossing popcorn, sitting/laying on the floor.(which was nasty BTW). Anyways ... what counts is they/we had fun.
Bree reminds me ALOT of Derek's sister Bre (Kara) She acts hyper just like how Bre was when she was around Amanda.  Anyways..driving back the car started overheating... kinda made it a little tougher drive back to Hampton. I should have stayed down there because Angie had asked me to photograph Tonis D-Day party. Oh well. maybe next time. I'm started to get tired right now. Taking a short nap to rest up a bit

Pull Your pants up!!

I just want to lmao every time i see one of these tools running, they look like a toddler with a fully loaded diaper

Im sooo damm upset right now!

I am SOOO fu#%in upset right now. I signed on into FB about 15 minutes ago and Julia sent me a message about her getting beat with a belt by her father(?) Why did he do this?.. Because "I fell asleep on the couch after playing volleyball"

WTF?.. who the hell beats there kid with a belt because they fell asleep on the couch??. I'm am soo upset!!  First of all... she's 13.. you don't beat a 13 year old with a belt over your lap!

Second, Julia is such a sweet girl & she doesn't deserve this crap at all. She's going thru a really tough time as it is. With the drama at school, the insecurities, losing and gaining friends. It's alot to handle.

I wish she was a real niece to me. I love her and care for her... alot more than she prob realizes. I just wanna go down and bring her down to Trudys so she can hang with her a few days.. just so she can be happy for a few days... so she can smile just a bit.

She was upset tonight

So my niece Trudy is feeling really bad and missing her friends. Last week she lost 4 friends because of bad mouthing each other. I don't place the blame entirely on my niece, but it takes two to argue and throw verbal assaults at each other. I mean, she's a smart girl, but lets her emotions get the best of her sometimes and says things she regrets later.
But by that time the damage is already done and she's lost a good friendship down the drain. Anyways she was missing Skylar and started to get upset. I avoided the "see what happens when you open your mouth" lecture. She realizes herself that she messed up. I just hope they all look back in a year and say to each other... "what the freak were we thinkin?"  :-D I think they'll eventually get back as friends. It's all about maturity and forgiveness.

A niece turns two

So me and Kenny spent yesterday down in Snug Harbor for Ariana's B-day, I can't believe she's two years old!! Wow does time fly. She's growing up really quick. Dick and Lucielle drove down fro Mass to spend time with the family as well. They are such good people and so polite an courteous. They have alot of respect for people. and thats rare to come across anymore. Becky was even up which was nice to see!

Dick, Luceille, and Bri.. for some reason Bri looked lost here!!

Becky, Trudy and Toni

Why apologize?

Sometimes we say things that we regret. As my dad always said we forget to "engage the brain before placing the mouth in gear". Someone hurts us, and we get defensive instantly. We clamp up, and then say things we wouldn't dare say if we were hugging them. I've done it myself. Opened my mouth and crap would come out and hurt the very person I love.
But thats were apologies come into play. Saying "I'm sorry" means saying I still love you and I messed up. It takes a strong person to walk away and to forget a friendship. But it takes a much more stronger person to apologize, and to mend it. If we never apologized, and never meant it.. we wouldn't have very many friends left.

What do we really need in life?

We all need to be loved.. to be held and appreciated. To be noticed and thought of. It's a need for humans that no animal has. It's said that humans have 5 basic needs in order to survive. Water, food, shelter, warmth, and love. Some may say that you don't even need love. That you can survive without it and keep on living a normal life.

Well.. it's been proven that depression is caused by a lack of love. Nobody likes the loneliness. People can get so depressed and sink so low that they feel unwanted, worthless and then they decide it's not even worth living. That since nobody cares, it's easier to end it so they don't feel the pain anymore. They try to end their lives to end the pain. Then there are the ones that hurt so bad, that they can literally be sent to the hospital. "Broken Heart Syndrome" is a real issue surprisingly.

I know it's rough sometimes

Can't sleep. Got some friends on my mind. I mean I should be thinking bout my job, getting my car tuned up and ready for another inspection, or worrying about Conner betting better. But instead I got a kiddo on my mind. I was bored and started editing some pics as I always do, and it occurred to me that she rarely smiles
 :-(   Out of the dozens of pictures I've seen of her I can probably count on one hand how many pics she's smiled in.

I dunno.... It's probably dumb because they're not my kids, but I guess thats why I worry bout them. They got alot of crap on their plate already, and then there's the relationships, school, problems at home...etc. I can only imagine how it hurts sometimes, because adults got thru the same thing. All I want to do is just give her a hug... that's all.. nothing more... nothing less. Just to let her know that I'm here for her. Anyways, gonna try to head down Thursday night and bring Trudy up to see Julia. Maybe go out Friday for ice cream or pizza or something :-D

It's the terrifying nose blower!!!

The terrifying nose blower!!

Earthquake and Tsunami hits Japan

Friday, 3/11 Japan was hit by an earthquake registering 8.9, with a tsunami quickly follwing. This is the 5th largest earthquake since 1900. It been noted that they only had 15-20 minutes to evacuate villages and towns before the tsunami hit. Thousands have been reported missing and feared dead. In one city alone almost 9,500 are missing. It's so very sad. My prayers are for the Japanese
Google Map of epicenter

CBS Live Coverage (turn the volume down)

Materialistically; why do we always need to have more?

Why is it that we can never be happy with what we have? We always seem to want more. The new and improved is offered to us and we grab it without thinking another second. It's like mankinds history with materialism has been filled with pride, greed, and selfishness. We can never be satisfied with what we have and we even have lost the our perspective on the differences between our wants and our needs. I believe the media and commercialism has a lot to do with this. This is what drives the competitiveness in mankind overall. Businesses depend and thrive on this. Everything has to be bigger and newer otherwise it's not to our appeal and will not last.

I hate my self for caring

I've seen it happen with my daughters friends. I've seen one lose her "V" card at 14, and get pregnant at 15..... I've seen another get pushed around and verbally abused by her mother so much that she started cutting herself....I've seen another get caught up with soo many drugs, I was waiting to see her name in the paper of her ODing. It's scary out there for em. And they've already gone thru so much crap. Thats why I love em. And the sad part?... all I can do is talk to them. I can't be there for them, or help them out. I dunno... maybe I just need a life... maybe I shouldn't even bother.

I must be really stupid. I mean what the fuck was I thinking about when I started caring and giving help. I started getting involved in these kids lives, and they're still going to screw it up. They'll still get into the stupid relationship, get hurt, some will prob lose their "V" card, one will prob end up getting pregnant. What I need to do is let em go their way, make their own stupid mistakes. It's not like any of them are family anyways. Trudy is my niece and that was only by marriage. So she's not even blood related. Everyone from Julia, Dara, Skylar, Lexi...etc. I mean they're good kids... but they're not mine. I really don't think any of em really needs me anyways so. All we've been doing most of the time is playing that stupid poking war. I mean it's all cute...but I really could care less. Fuck it
I need to go back home, I need to visit my sisters, my bro, and my mom and dad.

Conner in the last few months

Here's a video I made of Conner my grandson. :-) He's been gone only 8 days, and I miss the kiddo already.

Conner - the past 4 months from Shannon Linquist on Vimeo.

UUUgh...sick

So my laptop had been acting up.. come to find out it had a virus. It's been reading and writing over the same sectors over and over again making my laptop shut down. It funny though... because today Im feeling like greasy grimey gooey gopher guts myself. I've got a cold with a temp of 101.3. This sucks! Oh well... hopefully better tommorow. Been talking to Lexus on FB a little more. She's a kiddo who I met on the Answerbag website back in November. She had been so distraught she was considering doing herself in. She's had a real rough time it seems, but I think she her mom and her hopefully are doing alright. Just hope she knows Im here if she needs to talk, but I think everything will work out good for her. She's young, but she's very intelligent. Not much else on FB tonight. :-/

They should think about the future more

Today I headed down to Snug Harbor again to help Angela with the video to laptop issue, but this time I had the program, and everything worked out great. I'm guessing her and Samantha are getting along better ever since Sam has been concentrating on trying to graduate from school. She's smart and has plans which is great!! I really hope everything works out for her. Some of these kids though don't really plan ahead that much anymore. Some seem to think more in the here and now, which is really sad. I really hope she graduates. It'll be a big ego boost she needs.

I grew up in the MTV Generation and it seems like the previous generations had a little more forethought about their future and what they wanted to do with their lives than the next generation. I remember talking to William "Bubba" Landing when we were living in Hertford a while back. The old man used to sit on his porch rocker and tell some amazing stories about his childhood, about growing up in the depression. He had told me that they had to live day by day usually eating only one meal, on the little money they had.  They didn't know where they were gonna be the next day, but they always thought about the future, where they would be in 10 years. I guess that kind of thinking gave them a lil more strength to endure those hard times.
I think maybe kids these days should do the same. I've asked a few of my nieces' friends on FB what they wanted to do, and a couple had a very defined careers planned. One wants to be a Child Psychiatrist. Another wants to be a Pharmacist, but others just said "I don't know", including my niece.

I used to think the same way when I was in school. I really didn't care or give it any thought of what I was going to do in 5 years to graduation. They should think about where they're going to be when they get out of school, what they're going to do with thier lives, what kind of careers will they have. It'll help them concentrate on more important things and make all this drama/relationship/breakups-with-friends stuff just a little easier to endure. I know I wish I did back in the day.

Too quiet around the house since they've been gone - a new FB friend

So Amanda and Conner have been gone since Monday, but it seems like a few weeks already. I miss the lil kiddo. I know they'll be back but sure seems too quiet round the house. Hopefully they'll be back round May/June, but we'll see. Still hard to believe that he's my grandson. I sure don't feel grand at all! I've always asked everyone to call me "g-daddy". Makes me feel my age! :-) Anyways I pray that Amanda and Derek work out and resolve their issues and problems and make their marriage last. I want them closer, but I don't want to be selfish and their marriage suffer.
Anyways, got a new FB freind  - her name is Lexus. Met her a few months ago back in Nov on Answerbag.com She's a good kiddo who's gone thru some big time problems and has contemplated suicide herself. So she needs a lil support herself right now. Not trying to be weird or anything, but she is really beautiful too for a teen.
Speaking of teens, I know my niece is gonna be getting into deep trouble here very soon. I figured she'd want to hang out with her friends up in Hertford Saturday, so I asked her if she wanted to Julias. She initalliy said yes, which I was happy just to get her out of Snug Harbor, but I'm guessing she changed her mind and is stayhing down there. No doubt to hang out with another kid who's in need of some serious parenting. Oh well... can't help em all. She's choosing what she wants to do on her own, and if she wants to get into the drinking and pot, well, thats something her mom and dad have to deal with. I'm just her uncle... it's not that I can do anything about it. Anyways...heading down there nevertheless to help out Angela with the video transfer again. Gonna be fun this time, cause I got the software!! LOL

What causes a person to commit suicide when they have all the support around them?

So I came across another very interesting question on Answerbag. (I prefer Wikianswers, but the questions go much deeper on Answerbag)


What causes a person to feel like he or she has no support? It seems that every time someone commits suicide, he or she had so much of it?


I had to think about this for a minute because I've been felt depressed and hopeless before. Someone responded that we need to listen to the person and what problems they're going thru. He was partially right. We do need to listen, and when we have a support group around us, thats usually the case. We listen to the persons problems and needs. But we need to do more than that. We need to take action and show them that we care. Their maybe several reasons for the person to commit suicide, but the one reason to help them avoid it is to SHOW them you care. We may say "I love you" alot, but HOW do we show it? Words can only go so far, but when we hug them, hold em, take them out to the beach, bowling, the park, or just spend quality time with them, that does wonders to the human spirit. It reaches their heart. We may listen, but we also need to SHOW them how much we care and love em as well.

Read more: What causes a person to feel like he or she has no support? It seems that every time someone commits suicide, he or she had so much of it. | Answerbag http://www.answerbag.com/a_view/10393204#ixzz1FYEQZVsC

Alot of drama,heartache for my niece, a lot of forgiveness and a daughter going back home

Well.. alot of stuff going on at home and on FB. Weird how things sometimes trickle down like that. I went down to Angelas this past Saturday to help her transfer some home videos from the VCR to her laptop...except Iwe had video but no sound... that kinda sucked. Anyways I got to find the Pinnacle CD program to make sure everything runs smooth when I go down this Saturday. Saw Toni and Carrie. Those kids a soo cool. I got a "pat on the back" hug from Carrie. Uugh...Can't stand those...and I know she needed a real one...one that counts. I love/care bout her alot more than she realizes.

Anyways...went down to Sam and Bobbys because of what happened last week. I really worry bout my niece but I really want her to know what kind of friends she has. She's got so many good friends that love and support her, from Toni, Carrie, Julia, Skylar, and Lexi. They're all great kids and have a bright future. Anyways.. I talked to Trudy and I'm hoping things have turned around for the better already... she's talking to everyone now and has apologized. I think I need to bring her up to visit Julia this weekend...they need each other for supposrt... especially after what Julia went thru the other night. She was soo pissed at another girl she was shaking and crying. Sheesh!! I mean they're only 13-15, and they've already gone thru soo much crap.

Anyways, Amanda and Conner left for CO Springs yesterday. Me and Kenny saw them off at the airport. She was really upset. Surprisingly I really wasn't that bad. Guess because I know they'll be back soon prob in May/June. The lil "Pumkin" will prob be crawling by then. It seems really quiet around the house without them.   Amanda called today and she was crying. I wish I could hug her.. tell her everything will be alright. She already misses us soo much. About right now is when I'd be giving the kiddo a bath. That was our time together..just g-daddy and Conner. Now I'm getting bummed out. laters :-/

Hump day

Welp - "hump day" started out great... but ended up on a sour note. Derek told Amanda that Conner better not be sleeping in bed with Amanda and that he knows what hes talking about when taking care of kids. I'm like "wtf"!!! Dereks never watched or taken care of nieces or cousins like Amanda has. Anyways, I hope Derek realizes that Amanda is a wonderful and amazing mom and can do it on her own if she really wanted to, but hopefully they'll do it together as a married couple in a right way.

Poor Trudy... I guess her and another BF didn't work out. She's looking so much for that one guy, but sadly they don't really exist in Middle School. I dunno... I know that these kids get lonely... and they want someone to love em...somone to hold them... but most guys aren't really mature for that yet. Most girls are looking for that "forever" moment to spend with that guy, sure... the guys want a girl they can hang out with, to be together with,, but then they got other plans too.

Conner has become an amazing kiddo. He's starting to move around on his tummy to where he's got the moves to crawl... should be any day now! :-)

Why do some people need to be envied when in reality they're actually miserable?

So I come across an interesting question on Answerbag.


Why do some people need to be envied when in reality they're actually miserable?
It just came to me because when I first meet someone they seem to be this confident person that has a drive through life. Someone that you can really look up to. But when I start to get to know more about them they don't seem to be that person at all.


So.. of course I had to answer this one:
We all want to be accepted...to be needed and wanted by somebody else... to be loved. Sometimes to be accepted by someone we go thru lengths of being someone we aren't. We put up a facade of sorts. You could say the most insecure shyest individual could put up an act of being confident if he/she really wanted to. One things for sure... whether you're rich, or poor, famous or just another "joe off the street", we're all the same inside and have our day to day problems and stresses.

None of us are perfect, where all in this together... this thing called life...we all make mistakes and grow old.. and eventually before you know it, we're buried 6ft in the dirt. Thats why I've never really understood the attraction to movie stars. Sure, they make tons of money and it may appear to be glamorous but they have the same problems as you and me, maybe even more. The only difference is their job places them in front of the camera.

As humans, we appreciate honesty and truthfulness. They're internal values we cherish. If we all acted as ourselves truthfully to others as we really are, was honest and upfront towards one another a little bit more, I wonder what this world would be like?

Read more: Why do some people need to be envied when in reality they're actually miserable? | Answerbag http://www.answerbag.com/q_view/2430843#ixzz1EU0zoQEy

Wish I could go back in time.

Sometimes I wish I could go back in time. To make things better. To try to make things a little more easier.

To tell Amanda even though she loves him, that Derek may not be the right guy for her and not head out to Hawaii. To tell my son not to get to involved with the games, that thier are soo many more important things in life. To warn Rhonda of what Brandie was doing, so her mom could get involved and stop her from making a mistake. To be there for Carrie, hug her and hold her, so I'd see more smiles and she'd be just a lil more happier. To get more involved with my niece and warn her the relationships are gonna hurt because most guys are way too damm immature in middle school, and to guard your heart more. 

Yeah... I wish I could go back just a few years... just back a few years...like maybe to 2003 :-)

Poor kiddo

Welp (I like that word btw!.. if it's really a word!) so it's official. Some guys can be real jackasses. Skylar, a FB friend IM'd me and told me a friend of hers accused of making a fake FB page to get attention. Well... that would've been fine by me.. but he continued on and told her she was a slut and a big fat bitch. She was so upset she was crying, and that got me upset and pissed.


I've never met Skylar or Lexi personally, but they're real good smart kids, and neither of em need that crap thrown at them. I told Skylar, even if she was close to him before, he's a total jackass now. Anyone who puts down somebody like that deserves to be slapped so hard he won't be able to taste for a week. She got a kick out of that and was laughin so hard she was crying. Which made me feel better. These kids deserve so much better. Thankfully they have a real cool mom. I know that sounds weird coming from an ol man like me, but she is! Skylar told me SHE was the one who set up their FB profiles... I mean..what a cool mom. :-)

Anyways - Don't really know whats going on with my other "niece", but we haven't really talked at all this week...she was on FB today, but we only chatted for a few min. Prob another guy has her attention... she'll prob fall for him and gt hurt just like she did with Cody.... sheesh!.. these kids man.