A decision made

June 30th, 2004
Well, I've decided to stay here and work at Gees on Call instead of going up to Washington DC and work for the TSA. Several reasons why.
1. Cost of living is just too outrageous in DC. I'd be spending more up there for rent, food util...etc...than down here
2. $13 an hour up in DC is just bout the same as $9 down here
3. Standing on my knees for 8 hours at a time just doesn't sound very appealing
4. I'm not ready financially to move up in the DC area....even if I could move in with Lisa & Todd temporally, it just wouldn't be right for me to do that to her.
5. Last year TSA laid off over 2300 screeners....I realize not EVERY job is secure these days.....but I see that Geeks is expanding rapidly (hiring 4 dispatchers in the past 2 1/2 months, Bryan making Asst Operations Manager in 2 years), while the TSA seems to be cutting back. (RIF ?).
There's the potential of me making Asst Dispatch Manager at Geeks in 2 years. Hey there are a couple of bonuses, next to the kids, the beach and a pool! Lately I've been feeling very claustrophobic in the apt...and it really has nothing to do with anyone...it's just getting way to cramped in here. I find myself just going outside to escape the "close quarters" feeling. And at the same time I've been felling really lonely. I just want to be with someone...to hug or have a fun time with, to be able to laugh with.

Me and Amanda went to the Lonestar concert over at the Little Creek Amphib Base. We had a blast and Lonestar played all there great songs. We met a couple in thier 20's, Hazel & Phil, they were really cool & layed back....and they were having so much fun time with each other, joking, flirting, holding each other...and I think thats when I realized how lonely I was.....I was watching them & I don't think I've felt that way or had fun like that in a long time. We all went out at a sports bar, Amanda & Hazel sung a few songs of Karaoke. By the time we left, Amanda had gotten trashed with the shots of "Jeagermeister". She was pretty fun on the way home !....I just wish Amanda could find another way of having fun besides how she goes about it.